Aye Carumba!

Hello, everyone!

I feel like I've been run over by a truck.  No, make that a very long train.  Yesterday I was walking from my room to the bathroom and my right leg just gave out on me and down to the floor I went.  I bumped my head on the wall and wrenched out my shoulder.  My right leg, which I landed on when I fell, hurts so bad I'm considering amputation!!!  Last night I've been doing the heating pad thing, but I've got so many areas that hurt and not enough heating pad!!

It's scary that my right leg is getting weaker and going out like that, with no warning.  I'm wondering if it's related to the pinched nerves from my back doing it.  When I go through with that bariatric surgery, maybe it will relieve a lot of tension on those nerve roots.  We can ONLY pray!! :0)

I've been working on the blog again.  Last post I told you I moved the side bar stuff over to the right.  No, your eyes are NOT deceiving you, I moved everything back to the left again.  I'm a lefty, and I just couldn't get use to using the right side.  So it's gonna stay on the left.

I also was playing around with Photobucket and made a really neat slide show that is a TV and on the screen are all my pictures!  It's really cool.  Check it out...it's down towards the end of the blog.  You can do all kinds of amazing things at Photobucket, so I recommend you try it out.  It's at www.photobucket.com.

That pretty much is it on this end of the world.  It's still HOT here and won't get cooler probably until October.  Gotta love Arizona around summertime!!  Nothing new to report on the hubby, he is doing OK, although his pain has returned from the Gleevec he must take to keep his tumor killed.  He also has had some nausea and vomiting if he doesn't take it right after his meals.  I was hoping he wouldn't have the pain this time around, but I was wrong.  Thank goodness he is going to the pain specialist.

Hope you all have a great middle of the week day!
Love ya all!
God bless,
Missy

PS...As you might have noticed, Google FINALLY approved my site for advertising!!  So now I'm like everyone else with google ads on their blog.  I know, I know, what can I say? The strangest things excite me!!

Losing Ground

Hello, peoples!

Hope all is well in your neck of the woods!  It's been so incredibly HOT around here that I think someone forgot to tell Mother Nature that it is supposed to be FALL!!  Yesterday in Phoenix we hit 104 and today I think it's supposed to be 106.  We'll be cooling down over next weekend, I think.  Thank goodness!  I'm so tired of being a "sweat pool!!"  LOL!!

I'm sure you've noticed I made a few minor changes to the blog. Hope you like it. I changed the main image to a beautiful sunset shot I got at the lifeguard station on Mission Beach, CA.  I moved all the sidebar items over to the right hand side of the screen and took a lot of stuff off of it that wasn't working...the Amazon stuff, for instance. I never made one lousy sale. They even wrote me and said that they noticed I hadn't made a sale.  Well, how can I in this crappy economy?  Nobody is buying anything anymore!!  So off you go Amazon.  I just checked the status of my  Google Adsense and it is still awaiting approval. What, are they reading one line per WEEK?!!!  It's been like that for about two months now.  So I give up. Both services can go where the sun don't shine!!!

I also switched out a picture in the post "Down Memory Lane Part II."  It was the one with Santa Claus.  I thought it was me, but my Aunt Penny wrote and told me actually that was my cousin Jenny!  So I have a new picture that I know is me for sure.

I've been in quite a mood.  It just seems like I'm losing ground here.  When my mom died and we very first came to Phoenix, I could walk around the block with my dad (without a walker...I didn't even have one until later in the year 2009) and with Carol, my mother-in-law.  Now I'm lucky if I can walk from my bedroom to the bathroom, which is only a few feet away.  Thank God the house is all one level or I would never make it.  I didn't have the problems with neuropathy when I very first came here.  Now, I've got it so bad it keeps me awake at night.  I wish the person with the fire torch would cut it out down there!!  I also get that "pins and needles" sensation that goes with neuropathy.  I think I'm on the maximum of Neurontin and can't take anymore.  So I just suffer with each agonizing step I take.  I keep my feet elevated a lot, which means I don't use the computer as much as I used to. :( I miss it.  It's just another thing this disease has taken away from me!!

I guess I'm just scared that I will never have a "normal" life again.  It's gonna be ruled by medications, doctor visits, specialists and tests.  Do you worry about that, too?  That your life will never be the same again?  It's scary, isn't it?  I feel like the fibro has chosen for me which road I take in the game of life....and I hate being told what to do!!!  And all the things I used to do, I was HEAVIER than what I am now!  It just doesn't make sense.

NOTHING about any of this makes sense!!  I just want my life back again, no matter how much I complained about it then about silly things...I'd give anything to have those silly things back again!!

I hope this post finds you in a better state of mind than I am. I'm just going through a low period and it helps to blog about it.  So thanks for listening and being there for me, dear friends.  I don't know what I'd do without you!!

God bless,
Until next post,
Missy

Here We Go Again

Howdy, my friends!

Hope you all have been happy and well this past week.  My husband and I have been trying very hard to get a sense of "normalcy" back into our lives. We haven't had much luck.  We thought we had the nausea/vomiting problem licked, but it returned with a vengeance  this morning.  He was supposed to get a CT scan of his abdomen this morning, but he kept vomiting that I saw NO WAY he could keep the oral contrast down.  So we called and rescheduled it for tomorrow at 9am.  Check in at 8am.  I hope and pray that tomorrow will be a better day.  There's always hope!

As soon as he has the CT scan, the surgeon will call us and let us know what it said and what the "game plan" is from here.  Will he keep the abdominal drain for two weeks or will he get rid of it in one week....that is the million dollar question.  I don't want to remove it too soon, especially since it still is getting a little drainage out of it.  Only about 20cc/day, but if that drain were gone, it would build up inside him and block the intestines again.  We definitely don't want that!!!

Frankie went to the oncologist on Monday and he said that as soon as the CT scan is done, he will look it up and see where we should proceed with the Gleevec.  He already has told us that he will start Frankie out at 400mg/day for awhile then increase it to his usual dosage of 400mg twice a day.  We just don't want to take a chance that the tumor will return if he is off the Gleevec.  He also had labs drawn to see if he is anemic still. The doc said that if he was, he could get an outpatient transfusion.

That pretty much is all that's going on so far.  I still am just absolutely worn down from this past month of going back and forth to the hospital in this drastic heat.  Yesterday I slept from 5pm to 7am the following day! I couldn't believe it!!  My husband was right beside me, doing the same thing! We both are just so worn down....come on, B vitamins, kick in soon and give us some energy!!!!  LOL!!

As you can see, I did a little redecorating of the blog.  I hope you like it and it's easier to read.  I signed up for Google AdSense (which is where you can earn money by the ads on your blog) and was rejected.  First thing, they were looking at a totally different blog that wasn't even mine.  Then, they said that it was too hard to read and I had broken links.  So untrue!  I always check my links and they lead right where they should.  If you should find a broken link that I missed, please let me know.  But I was pretty bummed out.  I work hard on this blog and when they rejected me, it was like an arrow to the heart.  I can resubmit it, but I don't have the link to do that so I wrote Google for the link.  Wish me luck!!

Thank you all for being such a good friend to me. I cherish each and every one of you!!!

God bless you!
Until next post,
Missy