I want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for sticking by me through this lowest time in my life. I don't know if it's a side effect of the bariatric surgery, my fibro going out of proportion or just the plain "seasonal blues", but I've had it in epic proportions. Thank you, especially to my family, for being there for me.
A month back, I had a spell where I couldn't remember anything and was so tired I could barely keep my head up. My body ached so badly I could scream and I was certainly ready for the good Lord above to escort me to the other side of the sky. I just didn't have any zest for life anymore. Food, books, my Kindle, you name it. I just laid in bad with severe pain that nothing would touch. To make a long story short, I was having a reaction to SAVELLA, the drug I took over a year now for fibromyalgia. I went to my rheumatologist and he immediately switched it to Cymbalta. Of course, I lived off samples to start with, but my insurance finally approved of it. So I've been taking that for nine weeks now and feel so much better. It raises my BP a little (okay, a LOT) but taking my blood pressure meds keeps it in control. Cymbalta is my dream drug so far. I feel so much better and can help around the house now. The beginning of the year, I am going out and pounding the pavement for a job. Please pray that someone will hire an out of practice nurse who took a three year hiatus. I pray I won't have too hard a time.
A week ago, I had a little heartbreak. My husband and I decided to adopt a kitty named "Batman" from the humane society. He was sooo adorable, almost looked like Jackie, even. But we get Batman home and he and Jack do not get along. Further more, he kept jumping the fence separating our sleeping/living area and kept wandering about the house. The dogs got upset by it, too. I knew in my heart what we had to do, but that didn't make it even easier. So the next day, my husband drove Batman back to the Humane Society. God, I felt like someone kicked me in the heart and I cried much of the day. So if you LOVE cats, please go down to the Phoenix Humane society and adopt "Batman." He is such a sweet, loving kitty who desperately needs a nice home. I wish I could save them all. So now, Jack remains KING of his domain. What a cat!!!
My sister-in-law Barbara has kept us quite busy baby sitting her foster doggies named "Bridget" and "Bruno." They are soooo cute and go straight to your heart. The first pic is of Bridget. She came from a puppy mill that the shelter bought her from. Way to go, "Sun Valley Animal Shelter'!!!!
My weight loss is coming along pretty good. I've lost another 15 pounds in one month. When I weighed at the doctor this past week, it said 244 LBS. So I'm getting there. I can now see why they make you go to a shrink before the surgery to make sure you can handle all the changes afterword. And believe you me, there are so many changes I can't keep track of them!!! At least my appetite is coming back a little. And When I go to restaurants, I order food that I know I will be splitting up and taking the rest home in a container. Two meals for the price of one!! How do you like that? I can definitely tell a difference in my stomach that something is different down there. The food almost feels foreign in my stomach!! At least I got over the nausea and heaving that cursed me the first 5 months of my recovery. If you would have asked me then if I'd gotten the surgery, I'd say, "No way! Are you nuts?" But now, as I climb into smaller clothes, and look in the mirror, it's all worth it. And I've got the perfect walking partner....Tuffy! He LOVES to walk and we just go trotting down the street most days of the week. So, NOW, I am definitely glad I got the surgery. Those first six months after are peer HELL, but I think things are starting to change for me. God, I hope so.
Here's a picture of me at the beginning of the month:
Well, hate to cut this short, but my neuropathy is acting up and the top of my foot is burning.
God bless you all for a very blessed Thanksgiving.
May it be everything you wish for and much more.