I am just in such a funk over how my life has been going recently. I AM very grateful to be alive after my car accident and to have such a beautiful new (used) car in such a short time AND to not be seriously injured. But it has done something so severe to my head that I am afraid to drive again. I keep telling my husband that I THINK I'm ready, but if I am honest with myself, I am not really ready at all. First of all, everything survived in the crash EXCEPT for my glasses. How could it be possible to not get one mark on my face from the accident, yet the glasses that I was wearing on my face got totally trashed? Go figure. And my husband and I are paying a lot for car insurance and can't afford to get my glasses replaced for quite a while. I am terribly near sighted, but I can still see the red stop sign!! I just have to be wearing them while driving, it is a stipulation on my license. So I guess I have a good excuse to not drive yet....but I do miss my glasses. I remember having the GPS up on the windshield that morning and that survived with me with only a few minor scratches. Again, go figure!! I thank the lady and man from the bottom of my heart for getting me out of the car and for sitting with me while I shook so badly on the side of the road. That day was the worst day of my life and I can't seem to get over it.
OK, on to other things. Sorry to drone on about the accident. It was the scariest thing I've been through, so if any of my readers have similar stories, I'd love to hear them. :0)
I lost another 12 pounds, bringing me down to 257 pounds. I've officially lost 100 pounds since my surgery in April. I wish I felt better. I feel weak as a kitten, and that accident didn't help much, either. I had a MRI in the ER and it showed a bone spur on my back. So I've got that to contend with now. I try going to the gym, but it's so hard with my back. The only exercise that feels good is my sister's pool. Thanks, Barbara, for sharing it with us!! AND HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!! We love it and it takes the weight off my joints. Maybe we can start coming over twice a week after dinner? That way the sun isn't so bright as Frankie and I can't go out too long in the sun because of the medications we are taking. You are the best sister I've ever had in my life....and that's coming from being an only child! :0)
I'm also having a lot of problems with my diet, too. I get bloated fast and the protein shakes I MUST drink give me diarrhea for most of the day. What a way to lose weight!! But a least it's coming off!!!
That pretty much is it for now. Sorry about the tone of this post. Everyone gets the blues sometimes. I just want to start looking for work and being able to find a good job that I like and can keep. Please pray for me for that. I would really appreciate it. I'd love to get out alone with my hubby and give my wonderful in-laws a much needed rest of having their home back!! I can never thank them enough for their generosity.
Hope you all are having a good one. I'll post again soon.
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