Thursday, June 16, 2011

Regrets? Maybe a few....

Howdy, fine friends & family!




Well, I'm still trying to survive the heat (it's triple digits again!) AND to keep "regular" food down in my stomach.  It is the strangest thing.  I can eat yogurt, sherbert, popcicles, and fruit but when it comes to veggies and meat, my stomach puts up an instant rebellion and up it comes again.  Before my surgery, I never had problems with veggies or meat!!  What's the deal?  And I am so depressed as my monthly measurements did NOT go well.  I actually INCREASED on my waist and bust.  And I swear, NO cheating!  I gained a pound on the scale at home.  I turned into such a scale maniac that my dear mother-in-law hid the scale from me.  Thank God!!!

I know, I know....Rome wasn't built in a day and losing weight doesn't magically disappear over night...although I wish it did!!  I guess I've hit a little plateau, so I am doing more work on the bike at the gym and I started walking the treadmill.  It's going VERY slowly.  Trying to get my stiff & cranky arthritic joints going is no easy task.  I had to go to the rheumatologist this past week for a shot of cortisone to keep my joints going!  My sister-in-law has a beautiful pool that she and her hubby are going to let me use so I can swim laps and get the pressure off my knee joints.  Those are what are hurting me so badly.  And swimming is PERFECT for arthritis and fibromyalgia.  So we'll see what all the new exercise does.  I have NO idea why I can't eat meat....maybe it's too soon for my stomach.  Too bad, as that has so much protein, which I need desperately!   So I've had to supplement with those yummy protein shakes.  And whenever I eat, I can actually feel the food go down the esophagus and into my stomach.  If my stomach is too full, the food "piles" up in my esophagus waiting for my stomach to empty enough to pull it down in.  Very weird feeling!!!!   My tastes have changed, too.  My poor mother-in-law has gotten me everything on a whim, hoping that will satisfy my system.  But foods I used to love now taste funny.  That, too, is VERY weird.

And I soooooooo miss taking a pill with water!!!!  I think that is my BIGGEST regret about the surgery is that I have to crush my pills and put it in applesauce, pudding or yogurt.  This is so it doesn't get stuck on the way to my stomach.  And a lot of my pills when crushed do NOT have a very good taste!!   Since I have to take them with food, it's not like I can carry about a thing of yogurt and an aspirin if I get a headache when I'm away from home.  I have to wait until I get home to take my pills.  So I plan very carefully ahead before we leave.....like how long we'll be gone, am I due for anything, ect.  It gets tiring.

I don't mean to complain or anything.  I'm just feeling a little down today and am using my blog to "vent."  Given the same choice, I'd still have the surgery because I am losing weight, just not too quickly in the places where I want it to.....like my tummy and thighs!  And with how I was going with food, I would have died young like my mom from being morbidly obese.  My mom had other problems as well, but her weight didn't help, either.  I guess there's pro's and cons to everything, huh?

So I've been on the computer looking at blogs and playing with my Kindle.  That Kindle is my pride and joy.  My hubby got me a beautiful burgandy case with a pull out light.  And I've got over 50 books on my wish list at the Kindle Store.   Oh, how I wish I had a money tree in the back yard.  A lot of the books are under $7, so that's not too bad.  But maybe the "Birthday Fairy" will leave me a gift card for the Kindle Store for my birthday!!!  Ha!  Wouldn't that be cool?  :0)  Ha!

That pretty much wraps it up.  I have two pics to post, the first being me in my new bathing suit that my friend Sheila got me (Thank you sooooo much, Sheila!) and the second in a 2x/3x night shirt I couldn't wear before.  So I am making strides....I'm just being hormonal!  Weight fluctuates all the time and scales differ.   So I'm just going to keep on doing what I'm doing and hope for the best.

My sexy new suit!!  :0)
My new night shirt
Hope you all have a great rest of the week.  Take it easy and keep cool!!
Big hugs,



PS....Much thanks to everyone who has left and will leave (how's THAT for positive thinking? Ha!) me very kind and encouraging messages.  I can't tell you how much they brighten my day.  Thank you all for being my friends!

9 comments:

  1. We
    all know that it is the toughest to live with the pain and that we
    should be aware when taking vicodin and hydrocodone that we must not
    abuse of these drugs.

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  2. I love the new swim suit!  and the nighty is cute too!  I hope tomorrow will be a better day for you. There is nothing wrong with a little venting on a blog!  My doctor asked me the other day if I had considered the same surgery as you.  I am not a good candidate for it though because of my blood disorder.  With blood clots being a big side effect, I can't take that chance because I already have had blood clots and almost died so I am not a good candidate.  Instead my friend, Kathy and I have started a new blog journalling our work on new healthier lifestyles.  I am excited about it.  

    I am glad you are blogging today!  I miss reading it daily or every other day!  Good luck with the swimming!

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  3. Thank you so much, Heather.  I love reading your blog, too.  I'm sorry about your blood disorder.  I hope you are feeling better.  Hugs, Missy

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  4. Hello there!  Sorry I haven't commented in a while.  I have been so busy with the end of the school year and ballet recital time.  That is all over now, so we can move on to summer.

    I am so happy you are doing better.  Things sounded fairly grim the last time you posted.  Just a touch of advice...HIDE the scale.  Seriously.  Only look once every two weeks or so, and then, only if necessary.  Focusing on it will cause things to move slower than need be.  You know "watched pot never boils" thing. 

    As far as taking your pills on the go, get a bag together with some apple sauce (singles) a bottle of water, and a pill if you will need it.  Freeze the water bottle before you go and it will keep the sauce cold until you want it.  Motts sells single serving sauce cups.

    I am praying always for you to improve in your health and for things to become easier for you.  I love you and miss you.  Someday I am hoping we can travel out and get to meet Frankie and have a visit.  Someday, *sigh* LOL

    Love always,
    Lorie

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  5. Missy, you look so good in tour swimsuit! I know this has been a hard journey but you're making great progress. Hang in there and try to remeber how far you have come.

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  6. Thank you so much, Lorie, for your advice.  It is much appreciated!  God bless, my friend!

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  7. Missy 
    love the new swimsuit ;) its my favorite color purple
    you look great!!!  Keep up the great work, your dad and I are praying for you.

    Keep your chin up..
    Love n hugs
    Dad n gina

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  8. hi stranger we all have bad days x u will get there x  im still plodding along i have a desease in my spine and hips now and my life has become soooo bloody horrid but i still try and smile,laugh and see mates when i can... sending u hugs mate and talk to u soon xxxxxxx

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  9. Beaub757(Sharon Ballentine)September 15, 2011 at 8:30 AM

    Hi Missy
    You look so good in your new swimsuit and gown-just keep up the good work (and we know its work) adjusting to all the newness in your body. - sorry you can't swallow pills and have to crush them- I know what you mean about some of them really being gross to taste as I've had some of those lately myself.  I love reading your blog so just keep on writing girl we love to hear from you.  I also love my kindle- have you checked their free books? I gotten lots of good ones and a few bad ones too( those I deleted). Love and Hugs to you and Frankie always
    Sharon Ballentine

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